But, here’s the thing…you know what they say about the “best laid plans…” Every time I think I know where this process is leading, I end up wrong. And this should not surprise me because this isn’t my first time down this road of unpredictability! Apparently, there is more to this lesson of acceptance and trust and letting go of resistance than I have learned thus far…so the lessons continue!
Bottom line – this is a serious and aggressive form of cancer, recurring in a part of my body that makes it very difficult to treat. I have the very best medical professionals helping me and I have the very best support network surrounding me with love. Prayers for my healing are echoing through the heavens and angels are smiling down at me – of this I am sure! Not much else is a sure bet at this moment.
So right now, while everything is still “up in the air”, I am setting my intentions:
- To find ease in this process; peace in the advice I am given
- To accept all that happens without resistance, and instead, with the trust that somehow it’s all working out for my highest good and the highest good of all.
- To continue to savor and find joy in every moment – living life to the fullest; full of love!
- To find relief from pain is effortless, as I blanket myself in the energy of love
- To have the clarity, wisdom, and confidence to make good decisions
- To become so positively aligned with a cure, with wellness, vitality & bliss, that it cannot help but manifest in my physical reality!
- And to know, at the very depth of my being, that all truly is well – no matter what.
The last couple of days I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about the impact that this diagnosis has on the people I love most – and all those who want to support and assist me. I wish with all my heart that I could take this burden from you! It’s not the burden of helping – giving has its own rewards – it’s the pain and worry that I know is there for you because of what I’m going through. I can only trust that there is a hidden blessing in all of this for you too.
And…on that note – I want to say how very grateful I am to all of you for your support. You show your love in so many different ways – your thoughts and prayers, encouraging comments, coaching and healing sessions, food, driving me around (special, special thanks to Maryann Wilcox for being my companion on the Boston trip!), hooking me up with amazing medical resources (thanks Marci!!), hosting me (my gracious cousin Cheryl in Boston!), and those who have shown their generosity and support financially.
Since I have had a few inquiries from friends wondering about my financial needs, I’d like to address that here…first of all with a HUGE thank you to those who have reached out and assisted me financially in the past. You have touched my heart and eased my stress in a very profound and generous way!
To those who feel inspired to do so now or in the future, I am open to your assistance. This has become bigger than I can cope with alone. I have had little if any income since my first surgery in August 2011 and it looks like I’m in for a much longer, more difficult journey this time. While I do have excellent health insurance (thank God!), there are still medical expenses that are not covered – and this time it looks like there may be travel expenses as well. I live a fairly austere life, but if I am unable to work for a period of time, even my day-to-day expenses will become a struggle. I no longer have “back up” resources.
So, vulnerable as I feel in sharing this here, I’m doing it anyway, in trust and love. Many of you know how to reach me, but for those who do not, I have a post office box that I use for business at: P.O. Box 105, Endicott, NY 13761-0105. I have also started a “Chip-In” fund that uses my PayPal account:
I will keep you posted on the results of my trip to Boston. Please keep the love, prayers and positive intentions flowing! Thank you!!!
Bliss & Blessings,
Lisa
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